This is love...sweet love

About 3 months ago, my son finally began sleeping through the night. For the majority of those months I prayed and hoped he would reach this milestone and give me more than just a few consecutive hours of sleep. So indeed, I have been thrilled for him and selfishly for myself in having some uninterrupted sleep again. But last night, he woke up twice, maybe dreaming, maybe teething. I felt an amazing feeling in consoling him each time, a feeling that I never felt even when this was all I did those early months...I held him tightly, rocking him and humming his favorite lullaby, Rock-A-Bye-Baby. His legs started to relax and his body limp on my chest. His whimpering ceased, and his heart beat slowed down. I looked at him and him at me, as if to make sure I was still there. My legs felt weak and my heart pitter-pattered and I thought: there is no other feeling like this...This is love, sweet love.

As I went through the day, I thought about how quickly this year had gone by and how long those days felt during those first few months. I wished I could go back and enjoy, really enjoy that precious time with less fear, less anxiety more amazement & joy. I reminisced through his "baby" pictures and started tearing at this amazing blessing that was bestowed on our lives. My throat began to tighten and my heart to really thump and I thought: there is no other feeling like this...This is love, sweet love.


If you have ever met my son, you know, he is never still for very long. He loves to discover what his body can accomplish and what the world has to offer. Therefore, snuggling with him usually only occurs when he tires from his adventures. But today, in the middle of crawling, climbing, walking and removing every tupper-ware container I owned, he looked over at me, took 5 steps and fell into my lap and hugged me, really hugged me for what felt like more than 10 seconds. He looked up with a smile then quickly resumed his activity. At that moment, my heart pitter-pattered and I thought: there is no other feeling like this...This is love, sweet love.


This is one of the many "favorite" photos that really captures the moment.